On West Egg

I finally got back to importing entries from when I was on Blogger to this LJ, in part so they'll get archived offline with the rest of my LJ posts (ljArchive is a nice little tool), but largely so that all my online journaling will be in one place. (Once I finish with Blogger, I'll move on to the Xanga I had.)

OH MY GOD DOING THIS SUCKS. I have to open up each Blogger post-in-edit-mode in it's own tab in order to copypaste it over (because I'm not going in and hand-inserting italics tags and so on if I copypasted from the blog itself), but also have the blog open since the edit windows don't show the date of the post anywhere obvious, nor the time, and I need to properly backdate these things.

Plus, I have to do a month of posts at once or else I'll never remember where I left off, which means doing this SO MANY TIMES IN A ROW. I posted at an incredible rate back then compared to what I do now, and so much of it was UNIMPORTANT SHIT. There's a reason I have a "why I regret importing everything" tag, and it's only going to see more use as I go on. At least the frequency with which I have to use the "gratuitous Japanese" tag is going down already, and I'm only five months into a good few years worth of posts. (Thankfully, I do have a dead spell in early college, and I don't get back up to my ridiculous posting frequency until after I already was on LJ. Less thankfully, that ridiculous posting frequency continues past where I've imported to for some time.)

Did I mention I started this importing old posts project in 2008? Yeah. Still going to finish... someday. At least the "read through everything in one go" project that will follow will be significantly easier.

(Mostly I'm just making this post so everyone will go to my archives and lol over how ridiculous I was in 2001. Because oh god, was I.)

Hee! There's been a 666th visitor to the blog since I installed the counter. **Points to bottom of page**

Semi-pointless Post Count: 1

Hee! Squirrels!

Quote of the Day:

"I'd be crushing on her (Natalie Imbruglia) if I weren't gay." - Me, to Elusion.

Mmmmmm.... Nacho Cheesier Doritos....

Pointless Post Count: 5

Whee. I'm officially in Was-known-as-Christmas-Break-before-the-school-systems-all-went-PC Break, also known as "Winter Break."

Nothing important enough to blog about has been happeneing, or I would've written something.

Over break I have to work on my audition piece for the musical. Well, I don't have to, but I am so that I do well. I just have to decide between singing "Put on a Happy Face" or part of "One Last Kiss." (Or is that "One More Kiss?" I've been working on "Put on a Happy Face" 'cause I don't really want to play Conrad all that mcuh. I will if I'm cast as him, but...)

If you haven't figured it out already the musical this year is "Bye Bye Birdie." Auditions start the day after we get back from break, witht he day we get back being a day Ms. Snyder will help us work on our piece if we want help. She's a much better director than Dinovo already. We didn't know what music we'd be auditioning with until auditions.

I also need an approx. 1 min. monologue for the acting auditions, which are the three school days following the three singing audition days. I get back to school the first Wed. of Jan. The musical is in mid-Mar. I'm looking forward to it, because last year was fun, and this year, we have a better director. <---- Very abbreviatory paragraph.

Fwee!

Hey, I'm still alive. Blogger's been stupid. I'll tell you about the surgery sometime...

I have an ingrown toenail. I have surgery Saturday. Wheee... ?

I still haven't figured out what I wanted to say...

Pff is such a cool word...

Anyway, I suppose I should write about what's been bugging me lately...

For about a week now, every time I try to go to sleep at night, I want someone there with me. Preferrably Eric, but someone. I don't know why, either. I cuddled a stuffed animal for the first time in ages.

And I need human contact. I've gone without touching someone else, intentionally or not, for so long that I suddenly started needing it. And I'm not getting any, which really sucks. Just shaking hands would be fine, but I went all of yesterday without touching anyone else, and all of today so far.

Am I really so deprived? Or did my acknowlegement of being gay break down a shell I'd put up to myself? I know that everyone I come in contact with in my daily non-online life sees a shell, and if they manage to get past that, there's a second shell. I don't know when I put them up, or why, but they've been up forever. Nobody noticed that I was depressed. 'Course, they don't notice when I'm not either, because I'm such an introvert offline, but that's not the point.

And I just... I don't know, but I'm starting to get depressed again... And I want to say something to Eric so much, but I've committed myself to waiting for band camp, so that's really bugging me.

And of course, on top of this, there's something else. Naturally. (Pff.)

There's this girl I know, and I talk to her a lot more than I do anyone else offline, except maybe Eric, because I tend to babble a little worse when he's around, and we have a lot in common.

So today I realized that had I any attraction to her beyond freindship, it'd probably work. But of course, I'm not. When fate finally hands me a girl who'd go out with me, I'm not interested. How typical. Of course, our friendship is on about the same level as mine and Eric's, so I really hope that he's not entirely straight. And sometimes, just what he says and how he says it, it doesn't seem entirely impossible that he's not gay.

But, that's enough from me. I think.

Has anyone else noticed how my posts are getting longer?

Well, I'm at my grandparents' house now...

Whee.

**Fanfare**

THE PLAY IS OVER!!!!!

Now I have lotsa time to talk to Shadow-chan during the week, to do homework, to do... stuff...

The cast party was fun, but it would've been better if Eric'd played Twister, too... But he was busy.

I hardly saw him, but that's kinda good, 'cause the more I see him outside of Math and Latin, the worse things are.

I figure it like this: when I talk to him in Math and Latin, it's like having a small glass of wine. It's good, but there's no serious repercussions for doing it. The more exposure I have to him, the worse my "hangover" is. Thus, marching season and the play being over, I don't have much contact with him outside of Math and Latin, so I should be fine for the time being.

^_^

I didn't get back from the cast party until after 1 AM, and I stil had to get the gray spray-in hair color out. And I had to be at BG-Firelands by 8 AM for the Holiday Bowl (Academic Challenge). It was fun, though. Lost only one (of six) matches, so we got second. Lost the one match by one point. (We were tied going into the last question.)

"What ocean is the Berence (Or is it Barence? We only hear the questions...) Sea adjacent to?"

Don't answer. We already know. We just didn't then.

Feh.